Sunday, August 30, 2009
Please give me a chance... But not because you pity me, but because you want to.
At least a chance to be good friends just like him. But its not ur fault if you do not want to, because it's my own fault that i ended up like this.
8:26 PM N
Saturday, August 29, 2009
A white pick just dropped off when i sweeped my bed. Maybe its from god? And that's the power pick? Weeeiiird.
Okay... The song composing is progressing.
I really need you. And when i said that i hate him, maybe i was refering to both.
8:38 PM N
Friday, August 28, 2009
I cried in class today, during the two free periods. Thnks to roy playing those sad music about love... Thanks so much roy...
You don't know me...
You don't even care...
Roy and i are writing a song about our lousy lives too...
9:37 PM N
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Sad. Cry. Emo.
7:40 PM N
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
The outside is just a capsule that shows nothing while it contains all my emotions waiting to flow out, drowning the world in my tears.
9:41 PM N
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Teachers Day Audition = Fail :( Kinda Sad. Didn't want Martin to feel bad so didn't tell him. But i am sure, that we will make it next year! Long told me this is the third time he auditioned and he just got in this year... So yea.
Semper Fidelis, U.S.M.C.
I want to join you U.S.M.C.! I believe i have the characteristic of Semper Fidelis and that's why i should join!!!
Semper Fi. To you too... Semper Fi.
8:00 PM N
Monday, August 24, 2009
The audition was okay, i think that all the small things was better, although i screwed up at the "solo". Sorry Subway Massacre!
Hmm.. Life is getting slightly better now, but it may just plummet to the ground again, one will never know what happens next.
I am gonna get my knife soon i think, switch blade. And getting either one or two swiss army knives. One for her protection. I am very concerned about her safety, especially outside :(
Semper Fi... Semper Fi...
8:31 PM N
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Teacher's Day audition tommorow. I hope we can make it and wow the audience :)
I feel so empty. I shall write a song about it. Makes it three songs written.
Semper Fidelis!
8:29 PM N
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
I need to learn to not be selfish and not be jealous. I need to. Because this is taking a toll on me. This sucks alot. On and off... On and off... Sighs... Semper Fi. I will always be... Semper Fi...
10:23 PM N
Saturday, August 15, 2009
In The End lyrics
It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal
Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Or wasted it all just to watch you go
I kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when
I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'm surprised
It got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me in the end
You kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be
A memory of a time when
I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know
I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end it doesn't even matter
I recently heard this song again on radio and then realised this song kinda suits me too... Very old song, but then, it is still nice and as long as i like it... Yea...
6:24 PM N
Happy 15th Birthday to Jessica!
I murdered Mr. Happiness :(
5:40 PM N
Friday, August 14, 2009
My baby's father died on Thursday. Goodbye Les Paul, the father of my Les Paul! :( Sounds confusing to some i bet.
I hope everything is fine between us. Hope that we can talk like before again.
9:24 PM N
Thursday, August 13, 2009
I feel like a big jerk. I feel that i am very selfish. Jealousy is not a good thing. Sorry.
6:45 PM N
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
I am sorry. I guess my emotions got the better of me. People should know i am a very emotional person by now, so please don't blame me. Sorry. Still wondering what i should do now...
5:10 PM N
Sunday, August 09, 2009
Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
This song really speaks to me and Jiun Hon. Sigh. The bloody hell fate of us ex-Hong Wen School students. Should i continue in worshipping the God since he is the one who controls our life?
9:58 PM N
Happy birthday SINGAPORE!
Going to watch 300 later. Bet that it is censored version.
I hope everything's fine though...
9:22 PM N
It all sucks now. It all sucks... Shit happens, and one is forced to go on with it. If only i didn't meet you.. Things would get better. Sigh.
Wondering what i must do now...
7:17 PM N
Friday, August 07, 2009
Went jamming today~ With Bryan, Wei Le, Melvin, Shi Ling, Long and errr Elaine (i think she is called Elaine). Then we were like taking a vid of Long playing the Chop Suey or something and i didn't know where the camera was, then i ran in front of the drums to feel the bass and damn... it was quite shiok~! Until Wei Le told me there was a camera and i ran away.
I felt quite sad this morning... Calls, calls, calls...
Its seriously unfair... Dammit... I really want to, but you just won't...
7:39 PM N
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
Today is a day where i try to forget about my problems for a few hours by playing rugby during PE and basketball after school. It did help me for a while. So, when one is down, do what he or she likes to do.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONGYEYEYEYEYE!While playing basketball, scouts and me went to catch hongye. Haha! Then he got tired and i trapped him! Then the scouts came, with haeffner carrying the white thing with this cushion thing on it, because we needed a "pillar" for the customary "pillaring" when one's birthday comes. HAHA!
Then this lizard jumped out of the white thing. The pillaring began and i tried to prevent the guys from stepping on the lizard. I wanted to put the lizard back to the grassy area and then, yong sheng tried to get the lizard on a card and put it back to the grassy area. Buuuuut, i stroked its tailto make it move and the lizard jumped on my hand and ohh gooooood, its damn cute! Like seriously! (I am not gay FYI) Then zi quan helped me take pictures of it. Thanks! Then we released it on a tree and off it went!
I scared Beryln by faking her that i still had a lizard on my hand and i rushed towards her! She totally freaked out! Hahahaha! Should have taken a video of it~
I think by far, this is the longest post. Hurrah?
Late night, come home...
Work sucks, I know...
She left me roses by the stairs...
Surprises let me know she cares...
Say it ain't so...
I will not go...
Turn the lights off...
Carry me home...
Nanananananana~
Nanananananana~
8:24 PM N
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
Gonna jam on friday~ Gonna be so fuuun~
I realise i am very emo at home, not at school. Facing many problems currently. It sucks. A lot. But i just found out i'm not the only one with many problems. Hope the other person's problem will be solved as soon as possible.
Happy 19th Birthday Brother of mine!
10:02 PM N
Sunday, August 02, 2009
Went to Ian's church yesterday. It was kinda fun. Haha. But then, when i saw the moon in the dark sky without any stars accompanying it, all alone, i became kind of sad.
Who is he?
Tie, tie, tie...
7:48 PM N
