Wednesday, September 30, 2009

I really hate my freaking life. I really wish that i never met you.
Even people that i just knew are much nicer to me than how you treat me.

You don't even trust me. Trust that guy instead. Yea, trust him.

"I'm too depressed to go on, You'll be sorry when i'm gone."

5:47 PM N

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

It is really hard to be happy, when i have nothing to be happy about. Was still quite fine before school ended. Then the sadness slowly built up inside until i went home. Then, i just laid down on my bed. Daydreaming, listening to Fall Out Boy. Then the waterworks came kicking in.

7:32 PM N

Monday, September 28, 2009

You cannot just believe what you see. You must know everything and then you can determine whether you can trust your own eyes.

8:23 PM N

Sunday, September 27, 2009

My leg hurts when i play basketball. More than 2 weeks already. Damn.


You asshole. You act so differently when she is not near you. You actor. You liar. People hate you. I hate you. One day, you will be found out. Stupid actor.

And hurling vulgarities does not make you look cool. Asshole.

9:33 PM N

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Just had a haircut. Looks weird. HIGH SLOPE. ... ... ... ...

Should not have smsed!




You deceive, make her think that you are something that you are really not. I really hate you.

8:22 PM N

Friday, September 25, 2009

Mid-autumn festival, took a lot of time today. My first duty up in the control room too. Not bad.

There are many actors in our school. One of them,always acts in front of a particular person. But then, if you see that person outside, that person is totally different. You are not sincere. Asshole. You better watch out. There are many people who do not like you too. (I am not talking about YOU)

11:21 PM N

Thursday, September 24, 2009

I am really sorry. If I knew that you were sick, i would be sending you a get well message instead of that. Sorry. I would like to say sorry face to face or through a phone call. But not now i guess, you should be recovering instead of hearing my voice.

How about placing all those time on crying onto other things more meaningful? Thanks. Shall try to do that.

8:30 PM N

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Cried again today. I have to stop this. And advance. And finish this war.
I have to muster up my courage. In order to do so.

Helped Junjie write her song, hope it is okay. Now, i need to make a tune.

I need an acoustic guitar.

9:59 PM N

Monday, September 21, 2009

"you look up to this person a lot. they seem to be perfect, kindhearted, caring and etc on the outside but it never occured to you what they have hidden.after you find out you might nearly feel like every one and thing is betraying you."
Taken from a facebook quiz i took. And it is so true. I trust you alot. So, please don't lie and break my heart. Like what you always said to me too, it is better to tell me now, than for me to find out later.

11:55 AM N

So, this is all God's doings? There must be a reason to why i am still persevering then.

12:15 AM N

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Don't think you can stare at me. Don't think i am afraid of you. (Not refering to YOU)

11:07 PM N

I am in a lousy mood now. Rumours they are, but sometimes, they are true. I really hope, its either, i forget you, or we end up being happy together. It will more likely be, i see you end up with another guy, i start to cry alot, i get very sad for months. Then i may slowly forget you after that. My life sucks. I shouldn't really have been brought into this world. What if i dissapeared from this cruel world now, but even if i do so, i bet no one will miss me. No one. This sucks.

10:51 PM N

Friday, September 18, 2009

Ich Liebe Dich so Sehr.

Thanks for the talk. Made me happier yesterday :)

Rained today, so could not play ball. :(

Waved :)

Play ball soon :)
:) :) :) :) :) :)
;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

Play together, more fun!

11:38 PM N

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Adam's song kind of suits how i feel right now. This stupid feeling. Sigh. Enjoy the song.

6:14 PM N

Yesterday, was kind of good. Hope i can talk face to face. Need to be more brave.

5:54 PM N

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Should i continue? I really want to stop thinking about you. But i just can't. It has been about 1 year and 9 months now. Sigh. Life really sucks.

You know i can use somebody...

You don't know me, You don't even care.

You belong with me...

She's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar...

Everytime i look for you, the sun goes down...

He is running, a hundred miles an hour, in the wrong direction...

Tears from eyes, worn, cold and sad. Pick me up now, i need you so bad...

A day late, a buck short, i'm writing the report, on losing and failing. When i move, i'm flailing now...

5:48 PM N

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

I am supposed to make this special post that includes four videos. But i have no time, due to stupid homework.

I remembered what happened in Sec 1 this morning. Felt so sad and cried again. Felt really bad for leaving you great people. Sigh. Cry...

5:22 PM N

Monday, September 07, 2009

I am feeling so bored at home. So bored... Still got lots of homework to do :( And stupid tuition. Sucks alot.

Its very hard to be strong. When......

So sorry.

5:23 PM N

Holidays... Alot of homework :(

It Sucks

10:10 AM N

Sunday, September 06, 2009

Its hard, but i will try.

Basketball skills improved by a noticeable bit - Check

Very hard...

Okay... Raider's out. Who wants them?

Too hard...

Sigh.

11:47 PM N

Saturday, September 05, 2009

While having my guitar lesson, my teacher and me heard a boom! Looked out window and saw an accident. Smoke came out of this overturned van. Accidents always happen there.

Basketball skill is getting better now. Tommorow gonna play basketball at NYJC.

I suddenly felt so down again yesterday... Sigh...

4:56 PM N

Friday, September 04, 2009

Things are better now, less emo nowadays. Gonna basketball tommorow and Sunday! Get a tan!

9:21 PM N

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Gonna take action. Soon. BYE BYE, ONCE AND FOR ALL. The brotherhood shall destroy this evil forever. :D

10:32 PM N